Mindfulness of Everything
I don't remember when I made this little doily. Maybe 4 years ago. I like the wooden beads around it. This is easy to make. It's from a centerpiece crochet pattern that I modified. I tried crocheting today. I want to make a couple more similar doilies because they are pretty and useful. I had a hard time.
My old grey garden shoes are nearly worn out. So I got these. I was deciding on black or gray. I chose bright color. Penny said these were like a kid's shoes. I love it. I have an eye for color again. I love color.
I made this painting for my sister. That's her bulldog. This painting is very colorful. I think I am regaining my love for color and this feeling is stronger, sharper, happier.
It has been raining every evening. It rained a lot these past days. But today it's very sunny. So I brought the cacao beans outside to continue drying. I love going under the sun. I love the warmth and the way the colors stand out under the sun. I think I have a better feeling for space now too. I have removed barriers and fences around the house. We don't need them anymore because I've sold most of the ducks and chickens. Suddenly the spaces around the house feel much better, more free and open.
I cook everyday for myself and my husband. Despite all my problems I make sure there's good food to eat. The fried rice has herbs from the garden. The minced meat is pork from a pig that I raised from birth. I've been raising and breeding livestock for 7 years now. I am intimate with birth, illness and death. Sometimes I feel that I'm too old to continue farming. But I don't really want to stop. So I'm doing things today that help make farm work much easier. I understand better that what I do now determines the quality of life I'll have in the future. So there's no need to worry about the future. I only need to mind the here and now.